Have you ever met someone whose very presence hits you like a bus? You walk away from your time with this person changed either in a catastrophic sense or for the better. In my case, it was earth shattering in the worst way.
I had a relationship in my past that I refer to as my “lightening love”. We met and ZING!!! I was a goner. Completely head over heels in love. I was convinced with every cell in my body that we were going to get married and have babies and do the whole Disney Princess movie thing. I was SO convinced, in fact, that I blatantly ignored the many blaring red flags that popped up almost weekly. I always had an excuse for him on hand. Well, he doesn’t do this because of that. Or he loves me but he hasn’t had a good relationship yet so he doesn’t really know how to behave. You know the drill here ladies.
When he broke up with me over the phone (how lame right?), I was devastated. I burned. My whole world burned down. He had struck me like lightening. ZING!!! Toast. There one minute, gone the next. I begged God for answers. How could someone that I had given my heart to just throw it away like that? He PROMISED he was different. He PROMISED he was better. How could he have done that to me? I had a million questions.
Proverbs 4: 23
“Above all else, guard your heart, for everything you do flows from it.”
When I ran into that relationship I didn’t consider for one second what God wanted. I was led 100% by feelings. Emotions. THE FEELS. I got wrapped up in the hazy drunk feeling of first loves. I didn’t stop to guard my heart or consider if this what God really wanted in my life.
1 Corinthians 13 (a must-read) explains the many wonderful virtues of love but this wasn’t the love I was experiencing. I had a different problem. The problem was that my heart wasn’t aligned with God’s will for my life. My heart was left unguarded and ZING!! Lightning love. I left my emotions out in the open, flapping in the wind where anyone could come and affect them. That experience changed me in so many ways.
I look back and I’m actually very thankful for my “lightning love”. Like I said, I’m not perfect and I’m not sure I’d invite this dude out for a cup of coffee or anything quite yet but I was able to forgive him (over a LONG period of time). God placed him in my life for a reason. It was the lesson I needed to learn. I needed to align my life with the will of God and ask God to protect me in every single way. I needed to learn that no matter how “in love” with whoever I am, I love God first and foremost and His Holy Presence should be the focus of any relationship I enter into. My lightning love actually completely changed what I looked for in a man and God really used my heartbreak to grow closer to Him. God uses your MESS to bring you a MESSAGE.
Even know as I wait on God’s promises, I pray for Him to guard my heart. Even if I’m just crushing hard on someone, please guard my heart Lord. Don’t let me led into something by feelings, where I can lose my focus on the Lord and be burned all over again. Trust me, once you’re hit by lightening once, it’s not something you want to experience again. I encourage all my single gal pals outchere to really mediate and pray on the verse above. Guard your heart so you can remain unshakeable and unwavering while you seek God’s presence.